This vacation season is bittersweet for Alexa PenaVega and her family, who’re navigating a tragic loss.

Almost eight months after she and husband Carlos PenaVega launched the stillbirth of their fourth itsy-bitsy one, daughter Indy Rex PenaVega, the Glimpse Children alum shared a memory of their itsy-bitsy one girl and an update on their danger toddle.

“She used to be so horny,” Alexa recalled to E! Files' Francesca Amiker in an uncommon interview. “She used to be a paunchy itsy-bitsy girl, looked real like Carlos.”

Alexa, who additionally shares with her husband sons Ocean, 6, and Kingston, 5, and daughter Rio, 3, acknowledged the family skilled “trouble with reason” following their itsy-bitsy one girl's dying.

“We would reveal and we misery and we grieved, nonetheless we additionally infamous. We additionally had fun,” the 36-twelve months-passe persevered. “I hug my childhood that I even possess right here on Earth a little bit of tighter, nonetheless I nonetheless feel so connected to Indy. I know she's up in Jeaven. I know she's dancing with Jesus and having basically among the finest time ever.”

The actress, who stars with Carlos in the upcoming Colossal American Family movie Salvage Him Lend a hand for Christmas (characteristic to premiere Dec. 14 on Colossal American Family and at the Colossal American Family Christmas Competition at The Northwell Park at UBS Area in Elmont, N.Y.), additionally shared how the couple's three eldest childhood possess taught her more about the grieving job.

The actress, who stars with Carlos in the upcoming Colossal American Family movie Salvage Him Lend a hand for Christmas (characteristic to premiere Dec. 14 on Colossal American Family and at the Colossal American Family Christmas Competition at The Northwell Park at UBS Area in Elmont, N.Y.), additionally shared how the couple's three eldest childhood possess taught her more about the grieving job.

“Thanks to the questions that they've requested about Indy, the questions they've requested about Heaven and about God,” she explained. “You’re living in every other case whenever it is best to possess Heaven day-after-day, like you real fabricate after loss. And my childhood talk about Heaven day-after-day, we talk about Heaven day-after-day, that your lifestyles truly does change into fuller after loss.”

Alexa persevered, “In actual fact, this loss has magnified the sweetness that's around us, magnified my childhood, my family, the love that we possess now got for one any other. Even throughout the tears, even throughout the more sturdy days, there's real so some distance more appreciation.”